Depression ~ -.-

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For the past few days I've been feeling really really depressed. I have so much on my mind and there's so much I want to share to my friends to lighten up my feelings and my troubles. But I can't because they would just laugh at me or tell me that I'm being silly.
Like the time when I cried inside our classroom then my friends asked me why then I said "I'm just crying because I feel really sad about Heechul (of Super Junior) because he is an atheist.". They just laughed and told me "Wow! You're crying over something silly like that?". That sentence was like a dagger that went straight through my chest~
But mostly~ I'm depressed because I really miss her. Damn it~ Everytime we chat I pretend I'm ok , but behind the laughing emoticons is a bleeding,crying,sad and depressed heart. I haven't seen her in over a month now.
It's getting worse everyday. Sometimes I want to not have any kind of communication with her so that I could get used to not being with her.
I don't know what to do ~


~Sungminnie's Miinah~