Equality .. Is NOT a possibility~

Early in my life I found out that love, or anything else for that matter, can never be equal. One person may love the other person less while the other person loves the one person more than he would ever know. I just can't show my real feelings for I might just get hurt or get rejected or be thought about negatively by that one person. I try so hard to impress. But when I don't notice that one person's actions all I get is the 'silent treatment.' I don't want to live my life full of misguided expectations and broken dreams. I want to live my life to the fullest but I can't do it because of the obstacles that are in the way.
One of those obstacles are fear. One of the hardest obstacle to overcome. Fear of misguided attentions, lies, early judgement, misheard concepts, heart breaks, failure~
I can never enjoy my life if I continue to live like this. What if my time is tomorrow? What if it's today? What if it's 5 minutes after I post this blog? I still cannot decipher my life. I still don't know the many general truth that are within this world. One thing I know for sure is .. It's never equal~

~Sungminnie's Miinah~