That's the sound of my heart breaking~

Before that .. I just wanna say .. I'm so uber happy because my fake girlfriend had her first boyfriend! They are each other's first. And I hope they will be each other's last.

Hey .. Don't get me wrong .. I'm not a lesbian~ Haha!

Ok~
My heart is broken down into tiny little pieces. I have been crushin' on "x" for quite some time now. He knows I have a crush on him. And today, I found out he likes my bestfriend. At first it was painful but that's ok. After all "x" only likes her.
But no~
During our break, "x" told me "Nique! You have to help me with something, ok?" . Of course I said yes. When I got back from the canteen, I sat next to him then he told me "Can you help me become your bestfriend's boyfriend?". DAMN.IT! My reaction from the outside was "Yeah sure!", but on the inside "BULLSH*T!! OMYGADDD~ I'm dying .."
I mean can you imagine? Your crush has a crush on your bestfriend. And now, your crush looks you in the eye and asks you to be their "bridge". Damn~
Of course I will help him. If that is what would make him happy, then ok. I'll do it.
Hell~ I should get a best actress award for acting that nothing is wrong. I really deserve it.

That's it~

~Heechul's Baby~