My poor fragile little heart~

Aww. My fragile little heart is breaking again. Hahaha! This is so fun!!! I'm seriously having a GREAT TIME! :) :) :) :) :) Well. To summarize how much pain my fragile little heart is recieving .. I will enumerate:

1.) The scar that that horrible English teacher left me. I really wanted Juliet's role in Romeo and Juliet so bad! And when I found out that Oppa was going to be my Romeo, DAMN! I was more excited than ever! But then the teacher made comments like, "Who would you prefer? Monique and (Oppa) as the Romeo and Juliet or the real lovers, (my bestfriend) and (my bestfriend's lover)?" The majority of the class voted for my bestfriend and her lover. To be honest, even I voted for them. Hahaha! And just like that, I decided that I didn't want to be Juliet. That effing teacher discouraged me. Thank you!! :) :) :) Then my other bestfriend who is not in the same classroom as me told me this, "Hey, did Ma'am tell you guys about what she felt about you and (Oppa) being the Romeo and Juliet? She said that you guys looked like Shriek and Princess Fiona in ogre form." Ah. :) Once again, thank you! :) :) :)

2.) I talked back to my father ..... for the first time. Whoo! :) :) :) :) :) I cried a lot! I sent a 'please call me' message to four of my bestfriends. One texted me and told me that she can't call me because she had less balance. The other two, I waited for them but they didn't call or even text. The other one, well, she's awesome. In less than one minute after I sent the text, my phone started ringing. I answered of course. At first, I was calm. I was trying so hard not to cry. She then asked me why I wanted her to call me, I told her that "Oh, nothing. I just wanted to talk to someone. What are you doing?" She replied that she was still on the bus on her way home. Then she again asked me why, I told her that I was sorry for being a burden (I felt like I was wasting her balance). Then I started crying. I guess she noticed the change in my voice tone and asked me why. At first I just said "family problems" then later on, I told her that I talked back to my Father for the first time. Then I hung up after saying my thank you's and goodbye's. After that, I resumed crying, shouting, hitting random stuff, throwing random, unbreakable stuff around. Then later on, I recieve a text from the same bestfriend that called me. She told me that everything will be fine and that she and my other two bestfriends will be there .. always. :) :)

3.) My bestfriend and I had a misunderstanding. This is the most unexpected ever. And I was weak. Hahahaha! :) :) I didn't even try to talk to her. I was so cowardly that I only texted her after school was over. Ha, I only texted after she texted me. GOSH! I am so weak!! Rawrr!! Well, it was solved in less than twenty-four hours. I am so happy that everything's back to normal between us. And between us four.

4.) Ha. They didn't even care to invite me. 10.10.20 was Donna's birthday. I didn't know she would celebrate her birthday at a mall. I didn't know until I saw the new pictures she posted on Facebook. I mean I know it's my Mom's birthday also and that exams are next week, but come on! It would be less painful for me to get invited then I would reject it than not being invited at all. Ah, pain. Pain and anger! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha, I though I meant something to her. Yeah well, whatever! *rolls eyes* Worse of all, she only invited my bestfriend from another class. And my bestfriend from another class also didn't tell me that she was going. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS, HUH?! A plan??! A perfect crime?! UGHH!!! I am exploding with anger!!! And all this anger is converting into pain when it's reaching into my heart.

5.) I have confirmed that Benedict Lumanglas Acosta likes my classmate. :)

6.) I can't have a decent conversation with Sarah O. Consehal. Since my Mom wanted me to stop chatting until the end of the exams, I haven't had a decent conversation with her. Aish. :) :) i Miss You~

Ah, reasons. So many reasons. Haha. Every ":)" you saw represents 2 tear drops. Haha. Damn this little fragile heart of mine. It has taken too many hits. When will it be healed. When will my little heart be at peace? :) I'll be living in my own little world for a while. At least there, I know that my Heechul.Boyfriend will be waiting for me. ^-^ But for now, I'll just smile. Smile and pretend that everything is fine. That everything is ok. That everything is at peace. :) But in reality, my whole world is tumbling and crashing down on me. :)

~Eunhyuk's Boss~