My poor babies~

Damn~

My poor babies! T^T .. I can't believe that my ExH.Boyfriend, HanGeng and Zhoumi have one thing in common. They are all Atheists. *siigh* Damn it. My poor babies. *sob .. sob* They should believe in someone .. Anyone whom they could devote their time to. They can be a Christian, Muslim, Jehovah's Witnesses, Buddhist or even a Hindu, I don't really care! Just as long as they believe in a God. *siigh* Why can't they be like Siwon or Taeyang? They are so religious. *siigh* Let Siwon~ Yes. Let Siwon be the one to gently urge them to become Christians. Or at least let them follow any religion as long as it is not Atheism.
Aishh~ This wil be another reason for me to cry at night when I pray. Hahaha! Good luck to me! Damn. I can't believe how weak I am. Hahaha! But that's ok. That's who I am. I usually let my stronger side show as in 85 percent of my waking life. But when I am lonely and I just couldn't take anymore of the random shit that makes me sad .. I just grab a pillow and silently weep but when my brothers are asleep, I cry out loud. I let it all out. I don't care if the neighbors would hear. Just as long as it is not my parents or brothers or friends that can see / hear me cry. I don't want them to see my weak side.
Damn. Tsk tsk tsk. First the break-up with my ExH.Boyfriend whom I really, really, REALLY want back. iMissHim. And I also want him back because I don't want to continue the 'Fixed Marriage' of me and Alexander. LOLL! and now this Atheism thing. Why won't Super Junior just rip my heart out of my chest? That way it could be less painful.

~Yesung's Addiction~