This isn't Manga~

I never thought that I would experience this~
I don't know what this feeling is that I have for "x" but it's totally annoying me. Damn it~ I am trying the best that I can to forget the 'feelings' I have for him. But I just can't! WHAT THE FUCK?! Ever since my bestfriend kinda 'dumped' him because she doesn't have the same feelings for "x", I thought because of that "x" would be closer to me. But no. Because of that we grew even further apart.
I was thinking that this would be like a manga. The girl likes a boy but the boy likes the girl's bestfriend. The boy would get rejected by the girl's bestfriend then the girl will be the boy's 'shoulder to cry on'. Then the boy ends up having feelings for the girl and they live happily ever after.
Haha~ But this isn't Manga. "x" has got his eyes on my close friend who is the new girl. I'll be happy for them. I'll pretend everything is alright. After all, I am a best actress~

~Heechul's Baby~